Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Turning Back Tuesdays

Introducing: A Bad Night

Not only did my senior year prove to be a year of firsts (first time I was drunk, first boyfriend, first prom, etc.) I learned the hard way that you can't always trust who you're with.

I was with a friend of mine DO and it was March 16th. We decided to visit his friend's college apartment, and have a few drinks. For me, all it took was two vodka sours, and I was tipsy. Really, I rarely, if ever drank. My rocky family life had caused me to lose interest in abiding by their rules. I was the driver that night, but at the time, didn't plan on coming home.

So there I was; myself, DO who was a year younger than me, (and just so happened to be my "one and only ex's" friend), sitting at his coworkers apartment. In a confusing nutshell; JR, DO and this college guy, ASS, had all worked together.

The exact details of the night have faded from my memory, but I can tell you this. At one point, DO and I were in the bathroom together, talking about life. We were both drunk*, and we ended up making out. That was all, it was completely innocent.

The next thing I knew, I was sitting on ASS's couch. They had put in the movie Animal House. DO got up, and went back to the bathroom to talk on his phone. I was bored with the movie, so I closed my eyes. The next thing I knew, ASS was rubbing my stomach. I was frozen like a deer in headlights. My eyes continued to stay shut. In my head, I was asking myself "what in the hell is this guy doing?" My body was frozen. He then decided I was passed out enough to have sex with me. I was violated by a man I barely knew... I didn't open my eyes and say "HEY! WHAT IN THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!" because I was scared shitless.

When DO returned from the bathroom, ASS and went in to clean himself up, I opened my eyes, immediately started crying, and told DO we needed to leave. He went along with me, and once we were to my car I explained what had just happened. I swear I felt like a scene straight out of the movie KIDS had just taken place. In fact, I feel disgusting writing it all out on here. As horrible as this story may seem, it is a piece of my puzzle. A piece that may (or may not) help me to unravel the reason's behind why I am the way I am with men.

*drunk at that point in my life had literally entailed two drinks...and was nowhere near what I would consider drunk today...I still haven't decided if that's good or bad!

9 comments:

doahleigh said...

Oh my god, he actually did it? Had sex with you? While he thought you were passed out? That is so disgusting I have no words.

Brian in Mpls said...

What did your friend do when you told him? Hopefully he kicked the shit out of him

Alexa said...

whoa. not cool.

Mandy said...

I am so sorry you had to go thru that! Thats horrible.

Julie said...

What's his name and where is he now. I'm itching to hurt someone. Fucktard.

Narm said...

Thats completely fucked. Did your friend confront him??

Matt said...

My fav thing is that you nameed a guy ASS on your blog.

SS+1 said...

doahleigh - Agreed.

brian in mpls - My friend was dumbfounded

alexa - uh huh.

mandy - No need to be down about the past...it's just another piece of my puzzle.

julie - as far as he's concerned..what goes around, comes around.

narm - I wish.

matt - I thought that was funny too.

Megkathleen said...

Oh. my. god. That is horrible! Some people are just beyond disgusting.