Monday, April 19, 2010

Coffee, anyone?

Insert jealous single girl HERE.

Well people, my close group of friends (read: two girls) have gone from single to in relationships....it happened (what feels like) overnight...in actuality, one started dating J in January, the other met and has become serious with a guy she met a week ago.

I'm happy for both of them but all I want to do is cry.

I have this huge issue where I feel like I NEED to be around people because I HATE feeling like I'm alone...and when you have single friends you find things to do together. However, when your single friends start dating #BOOM. You no longer have people to turn to for a spontaneous run to get coffee, or company whilst walking around a lake because said people are busy getting ready for dates, or entertaining their new men.

I guess you could say the next few weeks will be a time for me to readjust....but I'm fearful it will be an isolating time of readjustment...and I HATE isolation. The older I get, the more challenging it is to find people to hang out with...and the catch is, I don't want to find new people to hang out with...I am resistant to change. I want MY people back...but then again, that's a selfish and unfair expectation.

So, I'll go forward with my life. I'm happy for both of them...really, I am. I'll fake being happy for me and my situation until my adjustment period settles, and becomes my new normalcy.

Anyone want to meet me for coffee?

3 comments:

AirmanMom said...

sending hugs your way....
~AM

SS+1 said...

Thank you, AirmanMom. :)

p.s. my brother is now in Afghanistan, and as much discord as the two of us have shared, I sure do miss the hell out of him, and hope he returns home safely.

AirmanMom said...

it would be my honor to mail a package to your brother. feel free to e-mail me his address. (t20837atyahoodotcom) which branch does he serve, how long will he be deployed?
I will keep him in my prayers.
~AM