Thursday, October 23, 2008

On that note...

Expanding on my last post...I have a few thoughts/secrets to ellaborate on.

As much as I long to find my soulmate who "completes me" I really love my life 98% of the time.

Specifically, I love not having to worry if I look good enough. Yes, my physique sucks. Yes, I'll get to it. Right now, I have more important things to do than check my son into ANOTHER daycare while mommy has alone time, only to pick him up and put him STRAIGHT TO BED. My physique is a sacrifice I make being a full-time job holding single parent.

I know my everyday routine sounds nauseating to some, and lazy to others...trust me when I say it's the furthest thing from lazy one could imagine...

If you watch Desperate Housewives, I can TOTALLY SEE how Gabby lets herself go after having children. Being a mom is honestly like a full time job where you're constantly putting in overtime, NEVER getting paid for a vacation, and rarely (if ever) allowed to take a sick day. Can you see why I'd want to mentally check out after being alert and attentive for upwards of 12 straight hours?

Some days, I question how my life would change if I found that special someone to share my nights with. Would I still feel as exhausted with a second half around? I'd like to think not. Would I turn off the television to have late night romp sessions? I'd like to think so. Does the probability of finding that special someone decrease when I have a poor self image? Yup, but I go to sleep comforted in knowing that I'm working on it.

5 comments:

Brian in Mpls said...

As dumb as this sounds I was kind of in the same boat struggling to make time for taking care of me. Somethings that have worked.

Walking the stairs at lunch for like fifteen minutes and then waking up just 10 minutes earlier to lift a set of weights it took me over a year to see the results but I started feeling better about myself immediatley that I was taking some positive action and control.

Nice blog:)

Julie said...

It gets easier. My son's first few years were all about him. As he grew up, I got more of me back! Being a single mom has it's challenges, but I can tell you the rewards are far greater. Enjoy every minute of your little one...you have no idea how fast these times are going to fly by you.

Far said...

im not a parent but I can imagine how hard it is.. I have friends who have kids and they never seem to have time for anything!

SS+1 said...

Brian - Thanks!

Julie - I can totally see his youth flying by before my eyes...it's pretty crazy

Far - Although it may seem like I don't have time, it's such a catch-22. Especially because the time I do have is inconvenient for my friends without kids.

Megkathleen said...

I can imagine how you feel. I have a hard enough time finding time to work out and I don't have kids around. I know when I do have kids that will just have to take a backseat for a while.